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"...And she called his name Samuel, for she said, "I have asked for him from the Lord"

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Tuesday, January 01, 2008

looking back on 2007 and looking forward to 2008

I started this post in January of 2008 and here it is the middle of March!! well I'll finish it up then give an update of the past months.

Last January I wrote these words:

This year I hope to embrace the struggles and to count it pure joy whenever I face trials of various kinds as I know this will perfect my faith. I want to learn more of the cross, and the sufferings that Jesus suffered so I can walk with him. I want to take up my cross daily to follow Him. Noble words but when the trials come I will have to choose to either fall on my knees and go to the cross or rely on my spirituality, my ability to figure things out,my plans and ideas. I pray I need knee pads by the end of the year. I'm afraid choosing God's way will itself sometimes be a struggle, pride and self sufficiency rear their ugly head so often.

And I have had struggles like never before, most of which have been related to walking joyfully and faithfully in my appointed trials. I, unfortunately, have relied on my own ability and ideas. But God has been faithful! He has been with us through it all.

I should not discount the miracle of a changed heart and a peace about bringing a young special needs boy into our family. It is still a battle though, I must constantly put aside my desires to care for my family and I don't always succeed, I am impatient at best and angry at my worst. But I hope I am learning to repent, because I will never in this life be without sin though I'd like to think so.

So as I recount God's goodness to us in 2007 I can look forward to more of the same in 2008 though my sin gets in the way I can Trust God to never leave me or forsake me.